anxiety is terrible, you could be having an attack and no one would even know because it’s an inward thing. it feels like you’re malfunctioning and you can’t process your own thoughts. you get a knot in your stomach and you can’t take a full breath but outwardly you can literally just sit there and look completely normal as long as no one tries to speak to you.
all my life i’ve said that things happened for a reason but i’m really starting to doubt that. and that says a lot considering i spent over an hour crying to my guidance counselor one morning when i was still in high school. and i still said then that things happen for a reason. i just wish i could understand why these things keep happening to me. i wanna know what’s wrong with me. i just wanna know what i’m doing wrong to deserve it all.